Gah, I was walking back into my building today with my roommate. We'd just gone to the post office and were both preoccupied with our mail. Suddenly, as we're passing these pillars in our lobby (me on the inside) Blake comes around one of the pillars. I was totally surprised and I know I most likely gave one of those thin-lips-tilted-up-at-the-corners you-make-me-miserable smiles. I just don't know if he saw it. But, we basically almost ran smack into each other. I spent the next, like, twenty minutes vibrating. It's not too big a deal though, we live in the same building it's bound to happen.

So, my and Kristin(my roommate) decide to go eat. We're planning to go across campus to eat at another dining hall, but then we look at the menu posted outside of ours and decide we like the food choices better. So, we go in, stand in line, and get our food. I ask Kristin which side she'd like to sit on, she points to a side and I head to find a table while she finishes making her salad. I start at one end of the side she choose, head around the perimeter to get to the middle-front where I stop and plan to sit by the windows. But, it just doesn't feel right, so I look and spot where I'd rather sit and start moving again toward there. When I set my tray down and look over at Kristin, she's walking the path I'd just taken and laughing a bit. "I kept thinking you were gonna sit down but you didn't." I laughed and said something like, "I wanted to sit here." I sit down, look up, and see I'm facing Blake's table which is across these fake plant things about two tables away and some extra space they allowed for the fake wall that's there.

Suddenly, I'm kind of embarrassed. I'd had no idea he was sitting there and I still have no idea if he saw me sit down or my weird traipse across the cafe. I could have switched spots with Kristin, come to think of it more now I really probably should have so at least my back was to him, but I didn't. I stayed where I was sitting, fearing it would be way to obvious if we moved to another table. Kristin, when she saw that I'd noticed, was like, "Yeah, I was thinking 'man, Courtney's brave today'."

I just felt really stupid. Kristin said there's no way he didn't see me, and I don't know if I think that's good or not.

Gah, every time I see this kid, I feel like I'm getting punched in the gut. It's really fucking annoying.